Info Tech or shift?

No excuses really but Mathematics hasn’t been atop my favorite subjects way back in High School, but during the Elementary years, looks like I am just not able to do anything about it but be stunned how the alpha numerical and roman numerical symbols run through my paper and enter my mind through the left ear and swiftly exit through the right, it was a human error I committed before during my Ateneo Freshman years when I refused to listen to our Mathematics Teacher and decided not to enhance my wisdom in Mathematics at the opportunity to have a remedial class with one of the Math Wizards at the High School Campus, truly it has been due to my own fault but even if I’d try now, I still won’t get that touch in Mathematics that’ll make me confident to say that I can make it.

I haven’t been the most interested guy in class due to my absences and they make me fall out of place -as I write-, the feeling of not belonging to the bigger crowd is over shadowing my low self-esteem that is currently flushing down an all time low, problems in the family have caused issues, my health have caused issues and now even my sideline on the internet is showing signs of dissatisfaction with the course that I have taken.

Probably, I did not decide that well which course I should take on and which would suit me the best, but I have no idea right now how to get myself out of the hole that I have lead myself straight into upon re-entering the Ateneo de Davao. I had this strong feeling that this move is yet the best thing that ever happened to me but I slowly have this awful believe of being corrected and leaded to a dead end where there ain’t be any turning back at this point.

Surely, I’m aware of the 36 thousand pesos tuition that my parents are wrapping together to have me educated at the Ateneo, but the present Georg Kevin Paquet that most of you believe of knowing – being this pretty incredible blogging sensation and SEO Whiz – ain’t be that awesome in real life as this post can tell.

Some have suggested that I should have picked Journalism instead of Information Technology and instead should have evening classes at the Holy Cross of Davao for that course to have myself paying full attention to my online responsibilities during day time and having enough time preparing myself for the classes that will follow later on the day, with that I would avoid the sleepy look that I have been carrying around for months no with no real time to have some rest or have some good time with myself, well, that’s if you’d exclude the mini trip I had to Manila’s NAIA that led me nowhere but home after 5 hours of frustration at the International Airport due to some financial reasons.

I guess I’m talking too much again, like a FRIEND would remind me about, but this is what I love to do, to talk, to share and express myself via any of the blogs as my medium of communication with the world. And before I wrap it up, I’m wondering what you think about this issue that I’m having? Should I have picked Journalism instead? Should I continue my weary stay at the Ateneo and wait until I can enroll for Journalism or a immediate stoppage -therefore waste of 36K- at the Ateneo help out to follow up my work to aid me in paying my tuition at the next school I’ll be attending -because I’m very sure that there are some older people (talking about my father and my mother) would not agree to pay the money needed to become a Journalist.