I turned 20 years old yesterday, June 13, 2011. Yes, it’s been 20 years now since I started roaming around the skin of this planet. I couldn’t believe it myself either at first, that it has been really this long already.
No, I had no fancy birthday party, nor did I have more than 3 visitors (there have only been 2, actually) yet it was one of the most special and memorable birthdays ever.
This birthday made me feel more special than any other did, because it was on this very birthday that I had come closer to value life, close friends and my girl friend. You know, it’s sort of a weird and complex scenario that I’m trying to break down here, but I hope you find your way along…
- My Father is still with me – He had a mild stroke a week ago. Let me tell you, it scared me to death. I was lucky enough though to have had a very supportive girl friend then (even until now) who didn’t let me down or left my side when I felt like breaking down. I may not have been too showy of my emotions when fronting any of the parties involved, but deep inside I slowly started to swallow the fact that he just can’t be around for much, much longer – yet so far I luckily stand corrected. It’s indeed a gift and a blessing that he’s still kicking around. Even he was sort of scared that he ain’t make it to my birthday.
Girl friend is changing for the better – Some of you might already be aware of how complicated things have got with me and my girl friend in the past 3-4 months. All the trouble, heartache, lies and so on… you know. I was so close to letting her go for good and start anew on my own, but she’s shown honesty, faithfulness and the goodwill to change for the better in recent weeks which changed my mind. I’m happy to have her in my life. We complement each others weaknesses and strengths in a way that I have never experienced in any other relationship so far. Both of us are attending to our academic responsibilities more intensively, too.
- I feel happy with what I have – I used to be one spoiled kid, who 8 out of 10 times would end up with whatever he wants or asks for. No, I won’t (really) nag my parents about those luxury wishes, but they just happen to become reality – not this time. The four day adventure of my father in the Hospital has cost us about 75,000 Pesos. I immediately threw the idea of asking them to buy me an iPad out of the window. It sucks, a little bit, but that’s just how it is. We can’t have everything in life and sometimes, we just have to adjust to the situations we’re in.
I really don’t know if I’m making any sense here but I really wanted to share with you my birthday experience, eh.
The only thing that I can do now starting this 20th year and 1 day on earth would be to finally excel in class and live up to the potential I know I’m capable of but never dared to reach. I hope that my Dad will keep kicking until I finish my College responsibilities or even beyond that. This is a totally new me, growing mature by the day (yeah and sucking it up post after post in terms of quality, lol).
Thank you for all the greetings that I have received on Facebook. It really makes my heart melt knowing that over 250 people have remembered my special day. Yes, some have sent generic “happy birthdays”, but I know that more than half of those truly meant to say “Happy Birthday” :)